Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in xfriendsonfirex's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
11:22 pm	wow. extreme few days. i'm excited about friday. and the pod that i'm hopefully getting soon. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 6th, 2007
7:52 pm	ouch it's over. are things ever going to be ok? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 31st, 2007
10:37 pm	home i hope that's the last "family vacation" i have to take in a loooooong time. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 27th, 2007
2:28 pm	screw days these last few days have been amazing. and ashley is coming over today. :) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 24th, 2007
2:44 pm	Day 17 These are some amazing times. I think I'm doing a lot better. Hurray for my amazing friends and Ashley. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
2:06 am	Day 11 So, wow. Today, I found out two more people like me. Well, in the last two days anyways. Does no one see the real me? Or do they like me for what I really am? I'm a complete emotional wreck, who wants to talk to Sarah and be friends with her so bad, but can't stand her. I get mad at people for stupid and sometimes no reason, and I take an attitude with people who aren't even involved in my problems. I don't think I'm attractive, or even as smart as I used to be. I think I'm a complete nerd, who likes Pokemon, Final Fantasy, and building computers and websites and taking things apart. Do people really like me for this? Or do they not see this side of me? Maybe there's nothing wrong with most of who I am. I'm never going to say that I'm fine with my emotions. I definitely need to learn to control them, but other than that, is there really anything wrong with me? I'm not satisfied with who I am, and this isn't who I want to be, but maybe this is who I am, and will be. Or maybe I'm just putting too much thought into it. Who knows. God knows. :) I have church tomorrow, and then to see Jessie, and then I'm going to my sister's in St. Pete on Thursday evening, Warped Tour on Friday, my grandmother's 80th birthday on Saturday, church again on Sunday, and possible guitar lessons for Julie sometime Sunday, and church again on Monday to update the site. Tuesday is my next day off. I'm happy I'm so busy. Honestly. Hanging out with Emily today was amazing. I love her to death. Goodnight. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 16th, 2007
11:35 am	Day 9 Monday. Last night was a disaster. Sort of. I went to see Harry Potter with Jessie, which was fun cause Jessie's amazing and I love hanging out with her. But after I got home, things went wrong. I still haven't talked to Brecca, and I'm tired of dealing with it. I think we're basically done. I still really like Lena though, so I should call her up and see when she wants to go out again. Haha. Insensitive, I know. But, last night I barely got mad. I definitely saw a difference. Well, I'm supposed to go out to lunch with Pastor Brian today, and then I have to go update the website again. Fun fun. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 15th, 2007
1:09 pm	Day 8 So, my emotions kinda blew up on me last night. I felt like some of them were justified, but then I lost control. I'm better now though. The last few days have been pretty good. I still haven't hung out with Brecca, but I went to the movies Saturday with Lena, and I'm going again today with Jessie. And on Wednesday, Kathy and Shelbi are supposed to come to church with me. That'll be fun. :D (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 12th, 2007
1:24 am	Day 4 (well, past midnight. Day 5) Today was pretty amazing. Church went spectacularly. Pastor Brian wasn't there. so Sarah Brew and Nikki Green led worship. So much fun. It made me happy. Lol. And I'm hanging out with Brecca tomorrow. Yay! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 10th, 2007
9:11 pm	Day 3 Today was a pretty good day, despite the trip to the dentist's. I've just been hanging around talking to Brecca. I really like her. Too bad about that. And church tomorrow! (Comment on this)
Monday, July 9th, 2007
1:44 pm	Day 2 I woke up feeling much better this morning. Not quite as stressed. I do feel a little pain from last night's events, but I hope they don't continue on much today. I have to go to church today to update the site and so on, and then take a trip to Amanda's house hopefully. That'll be fun. I miss seeing her. Plus, I realize that she is probably capable of being a much better friend than most of my current ones, because she is a very strong Christian. It'll be nice seeing her again. Later. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 8th, 2007
11:22 pm	Day 1 July 8, 2007.     What a nightmare. But I guess i reap what I sow. This journal is basically for myself, so I can document and review my behaviors and reactions. I would like to consider myself at this a point a broken person. But starting today, I'm on a journey to fix myself. To be a better person, boyfriend, influence, and most importantly, Christian. I will learn to rely on only God for my problems.     I don't, not matter how much I would like to have one, need a girlfriend, or even just good friends. I am blessed with good friends however, and they make my journey easier. I have so much more than I've ever deserved, and I thank God in Heaven for that. But now, it's my turn to show God that He really does mean everything to me. That is my goal. Current Mood: hopeful (1 Comment |Comment on this)